Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Where am I?

So I am sitting here, drinking Orange Zinger tea after testing out my new "Hot Pot", "hot water heater" or as I call it "Chinek" that I bought with the Sears gift card I received last Christmas. I know, I'm a little behind.

I am watching the snow fall from my window, again. Two times within a week, and we're talking inches! Its a winter wonderland out there. about 20 years of living in Texas, and all those childhood years praying for a white Christmas, nothing. The past winters have been warm. Last year I remember when I flew up to Chicago, I left Texas at 6 AM at 65 degrees. I guess I brought the weather with me, at least that's what everyone here is telling me. My mom likes the snow, Dad hates it. Rather, he fears it. A lot of people here do, since no one ever believes its really going to snow. I wouldn't have believed it, but it happened. I did not expect to ever have a white Christmas in Texas. My first white Christmas, here in my home state. I love it. I think its beautiful.

I am about to attempt to take the dog on his daily walk, we'll see if he lasts. He's not a fan of the white stuff. I want to head up a coffee shop and just sit and do my independent studies class, but I know many others have the same idea, and plus, dad won't let me drive. I think I'll just continue working from my bed, and break with another episode of House that I've received for Christmas.

Well, a whole post dedicated to snow. Kinda boring. Sorry.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

The end is near..oh wait..its here!

Home. Texas. 3 weeks.

This will be the longest time I have been home in a year. I love spending time here. Rest,catch up with family and friends, as well as still accomplishing the tasks of a new "to-do" list everyday. I still have to finish my independent studies class, work on internship, and i have a "mini-job" with my dad, which is great. There are little things here and there, but overall, I am going to enjoy this break.

Finals week was absolutely insane. It consisted of five finals, a room to pack up and move, and figuring out my flight less than twelve hours before it took off. Flying standby is great, because its free, but it can have its drawbacks. My flying experience was pretty fun this time though. I feel as if I have earned the title of "expert" when it comes to flying. Plane hopping and airport navigating are two skills I have achieved. After 5 hours of sleep, I arose and left at 6 AM last Thursday morning, with it being in the teens and still dark outside and drug my two suitcases to the brown line, and then switched to the orange line to take me to Midway. I arrived at the airport, got checked in, went through security and passed a few other Moodies on the way. After making it to my gate, I took out my apple and had breakfast and then fell asleep. I woke up to find a puddle of drool (slightly embarrassing but too tired to care)on my coat which I slept on, and to my surprise was in boarding group A!! That never happens to me, I am always C. Well, it truly is a small world after all, because it turns out Meredith was my flight attendant! Crazy right? so we got to talk to some and she told me that my connecting flight to Dallas would be missing a passenger. So thankfully, I was able to catch that flight, as the last person to board the plane. Good travels this time around.

My academics were horrible this semester, but I am just glad its over! Only 3 more semesters to go, and this one was rough. Next semester holds more promise for me. I am trying to savor Christmas and wrap my head around the fact that its going to be here in fours days. Unreal. Thanksgiving just happened did it not? I am listening to Christmas songs right now, and I wish they could be all year songs! I like the jazzy ones a lot. Bing Crosby has some great recordings. However, I love the Mormon tabernacle choir along with Percy Faith's orchestra. Beautiful. Side note: according to a Professor of mine, Joy to the world is a second coming song, not a Christmas song. I mean, he's right, if you listen to the words. Thanks Professor. However, I am still going to sing it at Christmas time, but it would be cool if we sang it all year. It is one of my favorites, and I have always loved the lyrics.

I am still praying for a second job. This morning after praying, I felt more peace about things. God has been so good to me and my family. I am excited to see what happens next.

Joy to the World , the Lord is come!
Let earth receive her King;
Let every heart prepare Him room,
And Heaven and nature sing,
And Heaven and nature sing,
And Heaven, and Heaven, and nature sing.

Joy to the World, the Savior reigns!
Let men their songs employ;
While fields and floods, rocks, hills and plains
Repeat the sounding joy,
Repeat the sounding joy,
Repeat, repeat, the sounding joy.

No more let sins and sorrows grow,
Nor thorns infest the ground;
He comes to make His blessings flow
Far as the curse is found,
Far as the curse is found,
Far as, far as, the curse is found.

He rules the world with truth and grace,
And makes the nations prove
The glories of His righteousness,
And wonders of His love,
And wonders of His love,
And wonders, wonders, of His love.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

The homestretch..Its all going to be ok.

Finals week. Emotions run high. Lots going on this week.

I didn't get job #1..so 2 more to go? I worry. I fret. I freak out. However, God is still God. He is in control. He is sovereign. He knows what He is doing. He has a plan, purpose. Who knows why He has hasn't immediately provided for me, however He still knows my needs. He cares. I just need to trust. Let go. Hold things loosely. Trust. Have faith.

Sometimes, I find myself being the "Martha", "do it all" woman. Loneliness creeps in. I "do things" but when it comes down to it, I easily find myself alone, after the day is done. I sat in the SDR today, hearing conversations about what people do together for fun. The texts that I don't get, the "I haven't seen you in forever" remarks. Maybe I do to much? Where is the balance? I mean, work and studying is a must, but other things that I choose, choir, ministry team, church, my major, these things can prevent a social life for one. I sigh, but I know its all ok. Maybe I should make relationships a priority again?

My emotions are whack this week. Again I say, thats ok. I have 5 finals, I can make it. I really can.

I'm glad God is so good to me. Even when I fail, He still holds on to me.

Friday, December 4, 2009

I love that rock. I just gotta have it back.

Life has taken me over.

One week left of classes. Finals. Home again.

Brief re-cap of whats up. I got to go home for Thanksgiving. Loved it. I love my family. Now I am back in Chicago trying to wrap up. This week came full force. I have worked my tail off. My room reflects my week, that is to say it is a chaotic mess. I don't like it. Its full of unclean laundry, unmade bed, papers, books, unopened mail and other clutter. I began to clean it up earlier, but I stopped and decided to finally rest. I haven't blogged, or read blogs in about a month. I just need to take a breather. Tonight is a no study night for me:) Today made me slightly irritable, due the fire-alarm going of during my dictation test and having to finish in the SDR. Not cool. The day did improve, and can I just say that I need to be more grateful? Yesterday, literally, God answered a prayer, as I was praying. I am currently in a waiting process for a job. I have one first interview, and a second interview for another job next week. My first payment is scraped by..But God provides.

Well, I am anxious to read about the lives about my friends, get in my cozy PJ's, and make a nice cup of tea, with maybe some popcorn to accompany it.